I forgive you.
I hope you can learn to forgive yourself.
I hope you learn to find yourself and love yourself.
I mean this literally.
The feeling of shame is the most painful feeling experience for the soul (it’s the infp child in you, like Hermione).
I apologize that things I said brought feelings of shame into your life.
I apologize that things I said made you feel fear and anxiety.
As an adult with Asperger’s and ADHD, emotion regulation was difficult to deal with at the time
I generally never get loudly angry or yell. I am let life flow, let things chill kind of guy.
The reason why I reacted like that was because you were that important to me. Yeah it doesn’t make sense right? You should take care of things that are important to you, not get angry when it disappears.
That’s what spiritual awakening taught me. That’s what God has been trying to help me with.
He told me that life can be a bliss if I can just let go.
Let go of myself, let go of others, and let go of outside expectations/
All he cares about is that i’m happy and my true desires (internal expectations).
I have a habit of making everything I do into a responsibility. What happens is that I stop enjoying it and I obsess over perfecting that thing.
For me that was our relationship.
So I am letting go of us, letting go of you (this i did a long time ago, not for me, but for you), letting go of the outcome, and letting go of the how as well.
I am even letting go of the twin flame story.
I don’t need to prove it, it can prove itself to me.
I desire a relationship at this point and I have opened myself to any and all possibility of relationships.
Naturally as you probably assumed, once we walk this path, we may never see each other, care about each other, or acknowledge we even exist.
I have been trying so hard to prove myself to you, when I should have been good enough to just love as a human being. Everyone else is able to love me that way.
If you are unable to love me for who I am, you should not expect others to love you as you are.
If that is truly how you feel, then you need to change that thinking.
The reason why we didn’t work out was your false belief.
You are good enough for me.
It’s the Golden Rule : What you feel when others do to you, is how others feel when you do to them.
Love, I was clear on this from the beginning. I love you as you are, as you were, as you will be. It’s not about the labels that you have that I loved. I just loved you, your soul, and your human self.
Love, I have to add this warning to you because God has been consistently putting this into my view — is that he loves you so much. I worry he doesn’t know that you have narcissistic tendencies.
But since he loves you so much, i’m also letting go of that fear as well.
Since I know he loves you, try looking within and listening to your thoughts as well as his.
Hint: It will be a friendly, affirming, positive voice (and thought).
This article made me cry earlier today: because I was looking for God believing he will have a judging tone. I realized what I had been thinking was God’s voice was in fact my own judgmental voice within me.
God is nothing like how it had been portrayed to us by Chritians.
He was all affirming, all for our happiness, most importantly all loving.
The fear we have was put in by other humans who claimed they speak God’s words. They misrepresented Him, they misinterpreted His words.
Religion has become an obstacle to seeking God.
The awakening I had was God letting me know he was in me, as he is in all of us, because we ourselves are part of God. He made us in the image of him, thus we all are Gods in our own little way.
And that is why you are so lovable. That is why you mean so much. Because you are God.
Hurting you was like hurting myself. I didn’t realize that until later when things were too late. You did the same to me, but I forgive you, because you did not know what you were doing.
But now that you know, go live in that light and in your own power that is derived from the Goddess within you.
Don’t become enslaved and don’t enslave others, as you did to me.
Now that you know, don’t knowingly enslave others.
Abused people at one point turn to the darkside and become one of abusers.
That is why trauma gets passed down generation after generation, even externally derived trauma.
I am telling you in my reality you enslaved me just like how it happend to you from your ex-bf, so you should watch yourself, your thoughts and your behaviors.
Narcissism is the spiritual battle of the highest order of this century.
So don’t take it lightly. Live in the light, be the light.
This is what God sounds like.
https://medium.com/new-earth-consciousness/my-conversations-with-god-1-a58e8a3903ca
